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I Wish I’d Make Up My Mind!

Do you ever want something badly but do nothing about it?  If so, feel free to worship me — because I am your queen. 

I started a new job three weeks ago (we’ve been in training all this time and it’s been stressful at times).   Somehow I managed to turn that into an excuse to not exercise at all and to eat like a woman going to the electric chair. 

I can’t even fully describe how horrible my food intake has been this week alone.  Early in the week, I had an entire bag of Hershey kisses – for lunch.   The next day, lunch was a Dominos hot sub with vanilla Zingers (!!!) for dessert.  Today?  After a breakfast of boxed french toast and bacon, I ended up ordering a huge (HUGE) calezone for lunch.  The other half of it was dinner.  My evening snack was almost an entire bag of sunflower seeds in the shell.  Salted?  I can’t even feel my lips at this point. 

So, to review:  I started a new job – a desk job of all things (and for the first time in a long time, my job doesn’t involve some sort of physical activity).  I haven’t been to the gym in over three weeks. I’m eating no fruits or vegetables. Apparently it’s even too much “trouble” to take a multi-vitamin.   I’m still not sleeping well and meals are whatever is convenient – no matter the calorie content or lack of nutritional value.  I’m afraid to even get on the scale.  So what gives?   Do I want to lose weight and be healthy or not?   And if I do, why do I seem to do everything in my power to fight it? 

I started blogging about weight loss goals a few years ago, and here I am — STILL. Still with the same bad habits, still with the same goals and still stuck in the same place.  

I’m miserable and yet I’m not doing enough anything about it.  WHY??

Another "sunshine" post

Okay. So that was a bit of sarcasm in the subject line there. 

I slept about 8 hours, and as usual, woke up absolutely exhausted (complete with the usual numbness and tingling of limbs).  What the HELL? 

I went back to bed and slept another hour and woke up feeling a bit better.   I had coffee, eggs and an English muffin (no butter) for breakfast. 

As I write this, however, I can feel a wave of exhaustion coming over me like it always does.  I’m feeling a bit disoriented, the dull headache is returning, and it’s not easy to even focus on what I’m typing here.  I feel out of it.  I’m sitting here, pissed, thinking, gee, all I get is an HOUR or so of feeling okay today?  That’s IT???

More possible explanations (of why I feel so bad) are running through my mind. Is it maybe dehydration?  An allergy to an air freshener or cleaning product?   Vitamin B deficiency?  I’m trying whatever I can to see what the cause could be.  If it were something like Chronic Fatigue Syndrome I wouldn’t have those few days each week when I feel okay, would I?   I can honestly say these symptoms are not new.  It’s just I feel like this more often than I have in the past.  Before, I’d have a few days a week when I would feel draggy.  But as I mentioned in my last post, feeling run down now seems to be my default setting.   Last year I asked to be tested for everything from diabetes to thyroid problems. All tests came back negative. 

At the moment, laying back down is not an option.  Since I usually feel so bad (worse than I do right now anyway), I’m trying to figure out how much stuff I can get done today (here comes the stress part).  I guess it’s better just to do what NEEDS to get done – like homework that’s due today and tomorrow.  Other stuff like the lawn, housework and even taxes can wait a few days.  As the hours go on, however, I’m wondering how I’m even going to get homework done when I’m feeling, again, like I’ve been drugged or poisoned.  WHAT the HELL is DOING this to me?

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